Once upon a rainbow

The time passed so fast, I have been working in the "s" hospital for two months. I really doubt that whether i , myself consider lucky or unlucky??? I am lucky as i have a preceptor who willing to teach mi alot of things although she is abit strict, but she is fine to mi when i am doin well .But i am unlucky or is she the one who bring some 'shit lucky" every time i work with her? since the 1st few days i go back home on time when i work with her, other than that i always goin back home late( OT more than 2 hours) when i am on shift with her . And she help mi alot actually as i am still new, but i still dont know why there are so many things happen when she is on shift. In additionaly, she always has to stay back more than 2 hours. At beginning,Its fair to say that i am also not so called "lucky",but i realise that i hav peaceful time when i work with other staff. I can go home on time and the pt alll very quiet during my time. I realli cant take it anymore when i worked with my preceptor. I dont wanna everytime go back so late as there is no life to mi. I hated it, somehow, be honest, i dont wanna hav same shift with her. It make mi feel more reluctant to work when i am with her. Its not realli i dont like her, just i dont like to hav heavy workload when everytime like that. I will bicome more and more discourage to be a nurse although i start to like nursing.I know i am bad that talking about her and she help mi every time, but i realli cant stand it anymore . Is this call lucky or unlucky?

☜❤☞ Over The Rainbow ☜❤☞

Thursday, June 19, 2008

压力啊@-@

best postural award!

yeah!! the girls won at the end !hahah =)

很多气要发泄,可是又不知道从何说起.这次选择用自己的母语中文来写日志,也许这样可以把内心的压抑抒发的更彻底些,表姐也有来看日志,所以方便她一下吧!哈哈..=)上班快一个半月了,从刚开始的密月时段,到现在的压抑.发生的很多事情,有开心的也有愤怒的,当然不开心的比较多点.总算让我看清楚很多事情,让我也深刻体会到: 这个世界上什么样的人都有!也许以前的身份是一直被保护着,做为学生,生边最多是你的同学,生活的圈子也没那么复杂.作为子女,你在家里还是父母心中长不大的孩子,很多时候都是他们在保护着我们.当你一旦工作,身边的人和事情都一切随之改变,当你在工作岗位上,人于人之间似乎少了友谊,而利益就相待取之了.最近真的发生了不少事情,让我开始讨厌这边的工作压力,让我开始对这个城市产生负面影像.六年来第一次对这个城市的厌恶,很想逃离这边的一切.回到真正属于我自己的家.开始不在强烈排斥自己的工作,而且一点一点的对它产生兴趣.但是,人于人之间的隔阂还有高要求少汇报的工作性质让我在次失望.现在好想什么都不想做,去另一个城市孤单旅行!这也是我一直想要逃避现实生活的借口.其实有时候想想表姐的话也很对,她说如果我是男生她回赞成我继续去国外深造,可是我是女生,她说还是回去的好,找个好的归宿,早点成家.如果你叫我真正做个决定是在这边还是回去或是去其他的地方,我自己都难一决定,因为有太多东西要考虑,虽然因为工作的关系,开始厌恶这个城市,不过还是有很多值得我留恋的人和事情.会有不舍,也会害怕再去接受一个新的环境.人越长大,就越不感尝试新的挑战. 太多的顾及,思想的成熟会抹杀你一切冲动的行为,而这些冲动往往是你新的一个开始.现在的自己仿佛少了许多的冲动,多了许多的平静思考.往往平静的思考压抑了冲动行为.原本以为只要你做好自己的事情,不管其他人的闲事就可以摆拖纠纷,其实不以为然,我的遭遇就是最好的证明,我只求能够平安度过到七月尾.老天保佑啊!瞥开我的人身物语,说说些开心事吧!上周六和我亲爱门去打bowling,之后又去做了所谓的"星星点灯",真是闪烁的饿!亲爱门自己心理明白的饿!无论工作在苦在累在怨,看到亲爱门就全部消除了,心情也舒畅许多!有你们在真好!

☜❤☞ Over The Rainbow ☜❤☞

Monday, June 09, 2008

having conjunctivitis!

whose hand is that ?

my new sunglass @-@

nice strawberry ice cream !

1st time of my life, i am having conjunctivitis. i had a bad irritation of my rite eye yesterday afternoon while i worked on my shift. My eyes kept tearing and getting red due to the irritation. my whole eyes were so swallon like punch by somenone. I consulte to the GP near my house when i get back home. I was diagnosis with bad conjunctivitis and given eye drops. Its almost 12am when i reached home and i still nid to study my I/V medication for today's test. I almost cant open my rite eye to half, and i am so tired after working. I went to slp after scan through the notes for half an hour but seems nothing go to my mind. Anyway i hope i can pass today's test, i dont wanna receive any call tmr morning. I have two days off and i realli nid to have a good rest. I manage to meet my sisterhood on sat nite as i dont have routine weekends off. Its realli good to ci them, ventilate some of my working tasks. We also gossip abit somebody. hehehehe=p Conincidently, mi and fiona brought same type of gucci bag onli the color difference. we are getting so hpersensitive when we start to talk about branded staffs. After dinner, we went to watch sex and city at cine. The movie is vri nice for girls to watch. wah! i am getting attempted to go to NY city after watching it. Anyway, i definitely will go there one day. stop here 1st, post again when i am free.

☜❤☞ Over The Rainbow ☜❤☞

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Its MY off day !

guess whose blood is this ?=p

This is long wk for mi,i hav worked 5 days in the ward.Finally,today is my off day!I am still a new staff inside the ward as i still hav alot of things to learn. But one thing which i wanna to bring it out and pround of myself is that i sucessfully took one of my pt's blood after my venepuncture course.Yeah~~~(its very difficult to take blood on patient who hav renal problem due to dialysis) I have a great satisfaction after i saw the blood drain out to the test tube. Gradually i feel that i like nursing skills!I was reading my I/V medication notes just now in order to prepare my test on next monday. Its quiet no. of commom I/V drugs but some of them i have kewn druing my PRCP. why sch dont give us notes on I/V medication while we hav attachment in hospital? It will be much more easier for us to learn during our attachment.My roster came out for the next two wks, i am off next tues and the following monday and tuesday. Its good to have weekdays off as there is less ppl while you are shopping at town areas but you hardly to meet ur frids who works office hour. We,nurses who work so hard, however we onli got 3 days off in two wks. Its unfair. Now I realise why ppl always say that working in singapore is stress and tiring. Your life will totally changed after you start working. You are busy with ur work during day time, its so tired when you finish your work, thus,ppl dont wanna have any socialisation with their frids! The onli thing you wanna to do is go back home.

☜❤☞ Over The Rainbow ☜❤☞